As I was driving on the highway the other day I let myself get immersed in the music and the scenery around me and then it struck me that this was the first time in quite a long while that I had really let myself get lost in the moment. I know old habits die hard and all, but mine always seem to be right at my heels. All the constant fretting over the past and what my future might bring – I’m sure the stress of it is taking it’s toll on me. So again I’m trying to remind myself to focus on the task at hand and let the consequences come as they will. It’s strange how a desire to control things can overwhelm me when it’s really the last thing I want. I’m not sure if that made sense. What I mean to say is, I wish that I did not feel the need to know what will happen. I want to not worry about it to the point of undue stress and let myself accept that things will happen as they will.

Anyway… I’m rambling philosophical again and I know that’s not the most interesting of topics to read. On a personal note, things are looking up. I’m feeling really positive and hopeful these days and I’m in the process of applying for a new job. I’m actually really excited about the job hunt this time! Don’t want to jinx it though so I’ll just wait until later to tell more. Good news on the ‘life goals’ front too! I’m getting my First Aid & CPR training certificate next weekend! And next will probably be some self defense classes. Yay!